If I am your friend then why did you say Such hurtful words that have grieved me this way I thought we were close how dishonest it seems That you didn't tell me when it first came to be. Your words were like arrows spoken without love You moved right along as if it never was The pain that I feel as I live on each day Is too much to bear keeping me at bay. Deep in my heart now a longing is sore I shared my pain from the depths of core I have forgiven with words, but I have much more to say I know it will happen I just need to pray. For now let me pick the time when it's right Until I can say the words that I might I fear of causing more damage than good But I know I must say what only I could. Whether we stay friends or not I am unsure For now trust is broken and it seems there's no cure I'm trusting in God to help me you see Cause He's been the one who is guiding me. ©Kimberly Balles 2016 All Rights Reserved
I wrote from the perspective of a friend I hurt. We had become very close, but issues on my end were surfacing and instead of discussing it with her I sent an email telling her what I was experiencing when I was with her. She of course had taken it hard. We have since met and it seems to be resolved, but I fear the pain is still there. I am sure our relationship will look different from hear on out, but she still wants to be friends and does not seem to be holding a grudge. I am grateful for her willingness to meet with me and discuss her hurts as well as allowing me to express my feelings about it.